Is there such a thing as too much inspiration? Can you have too much creativity? Too big of an adrenaline rush? For artists, adventurers, and other creative souls, the answer is a resounding NO! For me, a writer and artist, the answer is "sometimes." I often get swept into a tide of overflowing creativity, go manic with hundreds of ideas for new books and projects. My intense passion for art can keep me up half the night. For the sake of my husband and daughter, I have learned to rein it in somewhat. Some days the "creativity hangover" (the payback for staying up all night to write a good article) is worth it. Other times, no. Over strong coffee and a gruesome migraine, I ask myself, "Why, oh, why did I trade 8 hours of delicious sleep for one measly paragraph that, in morning's clear light, completely sucks?" No one makes the best decisions at 3 am.
"As with all things in life, seek balance." The Zen wisdom of a fortune cookie. Balance has evaded me for 45 years. With a half-smile, I admit to being quite "unbalanced." I've told others that my right brain is so overly developed that my head constantly tilts to the right. Why? It weight more. It is difficult for me to perform left-brained activities like math, taxes, remembering to change the oil in the car. I've been known to forget to eat breakfast, lose my keys multiple times in one day. And I have problems understanding the concept of time, much to the annoyance of dinner partners.
Fortunately, I married a wonderful, left-brained man. He remembers everything and is a good model for me to get my act together in the left-brained world. He is a good sounding board, the voice of the people, for my outrageous ideas. Opposites compliment each other. We have taught each other to appreciate life from a different perspective, from the "great divide" of the brain's hemispheres. My husbands's office is pristine, a study in order and simplicity. Mine is crammed to the ceiling with books, art supplies, half-finished craft projects, photos thumb tacked to the wall, post-its with scribbled ideas for a next book. In short, a messy whirlwind of creative energy run amok. In this maelstrom-of-my-own making, I lose things, (like myself) and cannot seem to finish any of my hundreds of projects. Why?
Recently someone breezed through my life at an important moment to help me with my left-right dilemma. There are a few golden moments where a stranger makes a simple statement and it hits you like a brick from the sky. This particular stranger said "If you run your life from sheer emotion, nothing will ever get done." I translated this to, "If you run your life from creativity and inspiration alone, nothing will ever be accomplished." My art may not make it to the gallery. My novel stays half written. The abandoned craft project scattered beads and fabric scraps all over the floor... I get inspired, excited, and jump into a new project. In the midst of that, I get an idea for a book, so I wander off. The next moment, I get distracted by a snippet of song that inspires me to write a poem. I am having a blast, I’m in the zone. I have the attention span of a 5-year old. No wonder I can’t get anything done. I’m having too much fun playing and don’t want to stop to come in for dinner. My inspirations, whims, and flights of fancy lead me dancing and flittering from one thing to another, never stopping long enough to get anything accomplished, let alone finished.
"If you run your life from creativity and inspiration alone, nothing will ever be accomplished." That statement explains a lot about me. I am so in love with my right side that I’m blinded to the left. What, I have another half of a brain? Who knew? I am finally realizing that I need the left side’s help to be whole and complete. I need the practical, the business mind, the realist, as well as the artist, the dreamer, the muse. Hmmmmm. Will the two sides ever meet? Can I even FIND my left brain without getting lost?
Can you have too much of a good thing? Too much creativity and inspiration? Only if you allow it to take over your life.